This will not be a traditional Good News Is…post today. I was uncertain about what to write. Usually, in this situation, I can refer to past journals and can craft a post. Not today. For the past week, I’ve been in a, let’s just say, mood – not good or bad, just contemplative, as I have to make a decision I really wish wasn’t on the table.
This morning, while sitting at my desk and texting a friend, I continued the conversation about my feelings regarding this impending decision and its potential impacts. I shared my fears while also expressing confidence in knowing that this decision-making is necessary. After our conversation, I found myself in tears. Here’s why: vulnerability. Being vulnerable is a challenging emotion, especially in my relationships with friends, family, and significant others. I’ve always been the one they could reveal their vulnerability to. I appreciate their trust in me to be that safe space, but the truth is, I did not reciprocate and honor them in the same way. It’s not a secret why – the decision to be vulnerable to a point stems from being “let down” in past relationships. Naturally, I erected a guard, preventing me from fully embracing vulnerability in my current relationships. Now, I have encountered this type of connection with Christ, where nothing is barred because I know His love is unwavering towards me. But, we should also aspire to experience such relationships here on earth (as it is in Heaven). The Good News Is…this morning, I realized I have been receiving what I have been giving for years. Throughout the conversations with my friend about this decision over the past week, there has been a safe space of words building me up, confirming me, and encouraging me – surrounding me with compassion rooted in love!
Recently, my pastor spoke on vulnerability. While it may be a challenging emotion to express, it is necessary for cultivating genuine relationships with others. First and foremost, we must learn how to be vulnerable in our relationship with Christ. It is in this space that unconditional love and trust are learned, which serves as the mirror for our earthly relationships.
To my friend, thank you.
Have a beautiful day!
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